I found ME .

My last few mornings have not been very pleasant . I woke up with a backache, swollen eyes and a cranky state of mind. I get out of bed unwillingly and taking few mins to get out of the lazy zero thoughts phase of early morning. All because my nights have stretched to long wondering silent ones, lost in conclusions and analysing the current situations and feelings.. despite of having a busy and hectic routine during the day, I spend most of the hours at night reading books and journals, or may be writing short stories just to keep myself away from thinking. Hence my sleep has lost its track from the usual early hours to the wee hours of night. I have no complaints, but the entire process is making me dull and lazy, and numb to an extent. The monotonous beat of daily chores, and a fixed schedule has made my life a little less exciting and entertaining. I have not inhaled fresh early morning air of relief and peace, i have not dreamt and smiled lately. The reasons are not much of a concern to me right now, because whatsoever may be, i still have to be strong and make each moment of my life worth living. Irrespective of the fact that how tensed or upset i may be.
So today, i put on my dancing shoes and decided to pursue my long lost passions and take a dip in the goodness of freedom . The freedom to move every inch of your body your way, freedom to dance to your favourite music according to your will.. DANCE is one soulful methods to vent out your worries and pains. The speed with which you move your feet and hands, can make you feel that you have an impeccable sense of balance. The more energy you put into dancing, the less burdened and chained you feel with life.
your face automatically starts expressing your inner tranquillity and relief. Your smile tells it to you that you’ve conquered the sadness inside you and you can do anything to survive in this world. The music, and every beat to which you move your mortal frame takes you far away from the madding crowd and leaves you alone in your own world of shameless love . you dance like no one’s watching, dance dance and dance... till the time you almost faint and your heart starts beating faster than usual. You lie down on the floor almost unconscious and starts breathing heavily, the heat that is released from your body makes you feel light, lighter than before. The sweat that drips from your forehead and goes down to your neck, that feel is the result of your effort. An effort made by you, to break the chains of a routine. To step out of the memories. To leave behind every thought that made you sad, and lazy and upset. That pain in your feet is unbearable, but  it doesn’t hurt as much as it hurt when you had a heart full of complaints and rejections.

I felt the same today, i danced my way out of the mess. I found my way of attaining peace . my body still aches, my brain is still tired, but tomorrow morning i won’t wake up cranky and half sleepy. I’ll wake up with a new confidence, less burden and a life full of things for myself only .
Good Night J