Maut..!

Sunsaan kala raasta..

Tezi se jaate hum
Band hoti aankhen
Aur shareer se pal pal nikalta dum..

Raaste ke aas paas kharhe log..
Sab jaane pehchaane..
Kisi waqt saath hua karte the
Ab parlok mein the unke thikaane..

dekhkar waapis murhna chaha
darr se main ghabraa gaya
khud ko rokne ki koshish ki
par iik roshni ki ore main khichtaa chala gaya..

zindagi ki dor ko haathon se choot te paya
sab sapno ko..mere apno ko maine bikharta paya
saanson ki larhi ko ek ek karke toot ta paya
mere apno ki pukaar ko mere kano se dheere dheere door hota paya

koi himmat,koi zor kaam nahi aata..
koi dua,koi ashirwaad kaam nahi aata..
antim samay mein insaan ka dharm kaam nahi aata

meri khudaayi ne jab mera raasta roka..
tab hosh aayi aur aansuon se bhara ikk manzar jo paya
rote hue log,shok aur tanhayi..
main hairaan,pareshaan..ankhen khuli,khud ko gumsum sa paya
zindagi ki dhoop chaon bhi manzoor hai ab..
bas door rahe mujhse ye MAUT ka kala saya..

Maine pyar ko dekha..

Mitti ke ghar pe apna aur mera naam likhna,
Khamosh muskurahat,aur
Baar baar mere naam pe apna haath ferna
Uski aankhon mein aaj maine ek sapna dekha!


Sardi mein thande farsh par mere nange paon dekhkar
Chillakar tokna,aur
Apne pairon par mujhe kharha lena
Uski aankhon mein aaj maine fikar ko dekha!

Tez hawaon mein mere urhte aanchal ko pakarhna
Halke haath se lapetna,aur
Mere haathon mein pakrha dena
Uski aankhon mein aaj maine izzat ko dekha!

Bheerh mein achanak mera haath pakarhna
Zor se jakarhna,aur
Thaamkar chalte rehna.
Uski aankhon mein aaj maine apne vishvas ko dekha!

Har choti choti baat mein
Har din,har pal
Khud ko kisi ke liye zaroori dekha
Maine insaan ko pehli baar kisi ke liye rote dekha
Hasaane ka zimma bhi uska tha.
Isliye khud ko bauhat der baad khulkar haste bhi dekha.
Garv dekha,samjhauta dekha,maasomiyat se bharaa bachpan dekha.
uski aankhon mein aaj maine apne liye,
asal mayine mein…
PYAR dekha..

Main..

Duniya ki bheerh mein chalne laga tha main.
Auron ke kadam se kadam milaye
Unhi ki chaal mein chalne laga tha main.
Apni samajhdari ko,mann ki shanti ko,
Ab ek alag hi roop de chuka tha main.

Pyar ko nafrat mein
Vishvas ko darr mein
Haunsle ko kayarta mein
Pal pal badal raha tha main.

Hamesha haste rehne ki soch mein
Har waqt doosron ki hasi cheen raha tha main.
Khud ko pane ki chah mein
Khud se hi,anjaan,bicharh raha tha main.

Mann mein koi pachtava nahi tha
Aur har shabd mein karhwahat ghol raha tha main.
Har nazar mein mere liye gussa tha

Par sirf ek nazar ki hamdardi dekh saka jab main.

Aayina dekhne se bhi katraane laga,
Khud ko sharmindagi mein doobone laga fir main.
Aaj akela iss baat ka ehsaas kar paa raha hu,
Ke zindagi ki mushkilo se larhne ke liye
Apne astitva ko khone laga tha main.

Zindagi..

Apne ghar ki chatt par
Roz aadhi raat mein aasman ko dekhna
Uss aadhe chaand ko ghanto tak nihaarna
Uske khaalipan mein uske soonepan ko dhoondna..
Aur taaron ki bheerh mein
Ek akeli ummeed ko paana!

Sarhak ke kinare par phoolon ki kyaari mein
Roz Aate jaate unhe khilte dekhna
Ek nanhi,adhkhili kali ko, unke beech alag hi paana
Usey apne larhapan ki ore barhta dekhna
Aur phoolon ke jhund mein kahi
Ek anjaane vishwas ka khojana!

Bachon ko har shaam bageeche mein
Khel khel mein khush hote dekhna..
Unke paas se hi ek nanhi jaan ko..
Sabji ka thaila liye guzarte dekhna
Aur khamosh nigahon ki uski taktaki mein
Ek masoom khwahish ka dabaa reh jana !

Har kadam pe kisi sapne ko toota hi paya
Har ummeed,har vishvas ko khota hi paya
Aur Inn sabko dekhne wala ‘main’
Apni zindagi ko bhi ek morh pe adhoora hi paya
Duniya ki bheerh mein, rishton ki zanjeer mein..
Pyar,dosti,kaam, duniyadaari…sab mein khud ko jakrhaa hi paya
Sunn dimag..band dhadkan….aur shareer ko zinda laash sa payaa!!!

khudkhushi..

Lambee saans lee aur ek kadam uthaya..
Chaku liya aur hatheli ko aage barhaya.
Kaat leta agar maa ko na dekhta..
Uski mamta ke liye khudkhushi ka khayal bhulaya..

Chalte chalte rel ki patri par ja kharha hua
Aankhen band ki aur baith gaya.
Na uthtaa agar janaaze mein rote logo ko na sunta
Apno ko ussi haal mein sochkar mera bhi dil ghabraya..

Laachar sa ek kone mein khud ko kos raha tha..
Jeevan ki musibaton se tang jab jee jhanjorh raha tha.
Ek chote bache ki kilkaari ne mann shaant kar diya
Bachpan ka dimag,aane wale palon se anjaan
Masoom si zindagi,fir bhi hai dil mein usey jeene ka armaan
Iss soch ne aur rulaya par ansuon ki vajah ko badal diya

Zehar bhi pee leta,faansi par khud ko charhaa leta..
Har baar agar dil ki soch ne na bachaya hota
Buzdil banke marne chala tha main
Himmat ne fir se jeena sikhaya
Marne ke kayi tareeke mil jayenge,par jeene ka sirf ek andaaz hai..
Isliye..
Maut ko chorh maine zindagi ko gale lagaya..

"Maa....Khaana ?"

Uss din der se jagaaya tha maa ne..
Taan ki parhne ke liye bhaag bhaag ke jaauu..
Der hogayi thi isliye bina kuch khaaye hi nikal gaya..
Ab yaad aata hai..maa ne roka bhi nahi tha..

Baste mein khaane ka dibba gayab.
Mote larhke ne liya ya mujhse gir gaya ?
Dhoondte dhoondte khaane ka samay bhi nikal gaya..
Ab yaad aata hai..maa ne dibba rakha hi nahi tha..

Jeb mein paise nahi rakhe maa ne..
Bhool gayi ya mujhse gum gaye ?
Sochta raha..aur jalebi wala chalaa gaya..
Ab yaad ataa hai..maa ne paise diye hi nahi the..

Ghar waapis aaya toh koi nahi tha..
Bachpan ki masoomiyat kaho ya anjaanapan ?
Bhook se tang jab kuch nahi mila, toh aansuon se pet bhar liya..
Ab yaad aata hai..ghar pe koi kyun nahi tha..

Maa chupti rahi aur mujhse chupaati rahi.
Uss kachi umar mein maine khud ko majboor payaa.
Chanchal dil ab gumsum tha..
Das saal ke mann ko maine bees ke dimag se samjhaya..

Maa raat ko rasoi mein kitni der tak kaam karti rahi.
Main jaanta tha wo chupa rahi hain..
Aur khaane ko kuch nahi hai..
Main so gaya..par shareer ki kamzori ko haraa na sakaa.
Bachpan ki uss bhookh ko chupaa na sakaa..
Khabar thi ke wo jawaab nahi de sakengi.
Shayad ro dengi aur mujhse nazaren mila na sakengi..
Sharminda nahi karna chahta tha main unhe..
Samajhta tha main unki takleef ko,ye batana tha unhe..
Par…Nahi rok paya main khud ko,aur gala bhar aaya
Na chahte hue bhi mere muh se ye nikal hi gaya….

“Maa…khaana ?”

Tanha-qaid-zindagi..

Achanak sannatte mein meri aankh khuli,
Apne hi andar baat karti ikk awaz suni.
Khwabon mein jo apni tarah ki duniya dekh raha tha main,
Haqeeqat mein wo kuch alag hi andaz se mili.

Khamosh aur akeli zindagi hu main..
Chalta hu,sota hu,akela hi hasta aur rota hua..INSAAN hu main..
Saade aath kadam..bas saade aath kadam ka safar hai mera.
Aage barhte hue ye saade aath kadam ruk kar peeche murh jaate hain..
Dua mein uthte haath, uupar dekhkar neeche jhuk jaate hain.
Sar par khula aakash nahi hai.
Aur paon ke neeche banjar zameen hai.
Haqeeqat mein subah ke ujaale ko bhool gaya hu,
Aur raat ke andhere se meri pakki dosti hai
Sar ki chatt se tapakta paani mere liye barsaat hai.
Aur wo chatt mera ikk seemit aasmaan hai.
Apni saanso se hi hawa ka abhas kartaa hu,
Aur aansuon se samundar ke khaarepan ko chakhta hu..
Hatheliyon ko malkar garmi ka ehsas hota hai,
Aur thande farash par letkar,sukoon mehsus karta hu..
Patjharh saawan basant ya bahaar..
Kab aaye kab gaye..kuch khabar nahi.
Kehte hain ek din mein chaubees ghante hote hain, mere liye toh har pal mein chaubees ghante bhi kuch zyada nahi…

Meri baayin taraf ki deewar mera ek aur saathi hai.
Mere jaisa hi dikhta hai,fark itna hai kuch toota sa hai..
Daahini deewar meri humraz hai..
Sunti rehti hai, kuch bolti nahi..
Mere samne ki deewar apne peeche mere khwab chipayi baithi hai,
Apne dil mein meri duniya ka wo dwar banaye baithi hai.
Mere peeche kharhi deewar mera sahara hai,
Uski peeth se peethe lagaye main ghanto baitha rehta hu..
Hasta hu,rota hu,chup rehta hu,baatein karta hu..
Apne aasmaan se girti ek ek boond ki baarish ko dekhta hu.
Ghutt rahi hai zindagi meri,aur akela hi mar mar ke jeeta hu.
Azaadi ki ummeed hai,
Isliye bahar ki duniya ko kisi tarah yaad karta hu.
Kaid parhi iss zindagi ko,
Chaar deewaron ki choti si duniya mein apni tarah zinda rakhta hu..